My first post on a newly revised blog. Go me! Before my blog was about my boring life as a student, wife, etc. and rather monotonous, to say the least. This blog, however will be a physical log of my journey in weight-loss.
First things first. Introductions.
I am entering my 20th year starting January 1, 2010, married, NOT LOOKING, and desperately wanting children to warp and spoil in only a way that I can. I love kids, and this is a big motivation for my weight-loss journey. I love cooking in a profound way. I not only love it, I respect cooking. I respect anyone who can impress me with their culinary talents. I also love food, quite obviously. I've had a weight "problem" since age seven...second grade. I'm working on 13 years of overweight/obesity, and I've decided that it's time to stop. It's time to change, and never ever look back. Cliche, yes, but I'm ready to start anew.
I joined "WW" a month ago, and as always, there is always something keeping me from totally dedicating myself to it. Holiday meals, finals week, just general gorging and stress is the culprit currently. But today, I weighed in and found myself very happy in a bittersweet kind of way. The weigh-in previous to this, I weighed (gasp!) ((I can't believe I'm actually admitting this in public...)) 275 pounds. Ouch. I told a little fib to the sponsor by writing 270, so it wasn't such an obvious gain from my previous weigh-ins, to that means from two weeks ago, I've lost a total of 7 pounds. While this is a big moment for me, as my first loss since I joined, it also comes with some guilt. The past few days, I've been eating well. I've cooked healthy meals, (an entire pot of soup for just a single point!) watched my servings, and have worked out on the new Wii Fit Plus that my hubby and I recieved for Christmas this year. However, it also works out to be that the soup that was so very healthy for me was sometimes the only meal I'd have all day. I've learned from previous experience that starving yourself is a terribly effective way to lose weight, but as soon as you take a bite or two, or ten, everything comes back, and then some.
During the first two years of high school, there were two seperate occasions that I lost, and gained back, 50 pounds in a matter of a few months. This happened twice. TWICE. I have lost a total of over 100 pounds in two years, and gained it all back, plus, about 80 lbs more. SCARY. This is because I starved myself silly, sometimes not eating for up to four days (this was when I was taking the prescription drug, phentermine, an appetite suppresant).
I'm terrified that this is going to come back on me, and these seven measly pounds turn into ten more. Ugh. Remember me in whatever spiritual manner you see fit, if you will.
Starting weight - 275
Current weight - 268
Rosmerta,
ReplyDeleteI think you have a great attitude right now for losing weight. You are obviously focused on long term goals and healthy weight loss. You know I have first hand experience in waiting for slow biological changes. But as long you see evidence that things are going the right direction, sooner or later you'll reach your goal.
:)